Cru’s Letter

I don’t want to write this.

It’s actually much easier for the ideas to stay in my head because in there, I don’t have to explain, I can just understand.

But alas, here I am, typing away for a very specific reason.

When you don’t want to do something (that you know you should), life will test you to make sure you have an actual reason to push through instead of cashing in on an excuse.

In those moments, it’s pretty hard to access a good enough answer when the list of excuses (free passes to your comfort zone) is pretty compelling.

I acknowledge that today, I don’t feel like writing and life is interviewing me by asking, “why would you write when you have a million things going on, your to-do list is too long, you’re hungry as hell right now, nobody really cares about your newsletter anyway…”

Pretty solid question eh?

My real answer: I didn’t sign up for my emotions to control my life so I make the choice that my future self would be happy about. This is a pure reflection of the character I want to keep building within myself.

Now, imagine I didn’t have that sick ass answer loaded up in my mind.

Life’s question would’ve easily sent me into the comfort zone of picking one of those excuses. Mind you, some of the excuses are pretty valid but that doesn’t matter.

The times where you have the best excuses are the greatest opportunities to show yourself what you’re made of.

So guess what… I don’t wanna write?

I’ll write about THAT because it truly is not about the newsletter, it’s about the kind of person I decide to show up as in my every day life.

There’s something right now that you don’t want to do (but should) and that’s okay. Maybe the thing itself doesn’t actually matter that much but by letting the responsibility go by the wayside, you’re telling yourself a certain story about who you are:

“When things get uncomfortable, I turn a blind eye”

If you decided, however, to take responsibility in doing the right thing for yourself, the story will start to sound different:

“I feel heroic because when I feel like falling behind, I pick my own ass up and follow through.”

You got this.

-Cru

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